Saturday, August 21, 2010

~macam nie budak dentist?~


ini sesi luahan monolog kepada diri sendiri, jika terasa terganggu sila tekan butang x di hujung sebelah kanan.
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gua pernah terduduk,
melihat bintang, ditiup angin sejuk menyucuk ke sanubari,
gua pernah terpejam,
mengenang kembali zaman-zaman kegemilangan di arena persekolahan.

dulu time sekolah bukan main hebat rasanya diri ini,
dengan pemegang "tunas harapan" negeri selama 2 tahun,
straight a's bagi exam upsr, pmr, cuma spm la sleck sikit
sedang orang lain bingung nak dapat tempat blajar ,
gua dapat offer 3 scholar skaligus.

ko-ko takpayah cakap lah,
tv, majalah, suratkhabar semua gua dah merasa,
the feeling when you win something and all the spot lights show your presence
with reporters hustling around finding a way to catch up on you,
trying to get your stories published, trying to offer you fame and attention.

gua dah rasa semua tu,
gua dah puas hati dengan hidup sebelum nie,
tapi tulah, bila dah masuk ke alam university,
terus segalanya berubah

no longer tunas harapan,
no longer top scorer,
no longer 90 + marks
no longer the old me. :(

the only thing left is my dignity and my gift of the gab to sustain and ensure that i exist and am not invisible to the others..

gua tak tau tang mana silap gua,
or is that the threshold for my education level?

well, gua rasa gua takkan mengalah,
biarlah macam mane keadaan gua,
biarlah macam mane capacity otak gua bleyh sustain,
gua try jugak sehabis mungkin ,
biar nanti kalau gua kena balik pun, gua puas hati yang gua dah buat yang terbaik.


tulang ikan berterabur: hero to zero? ceh hero lah sangat keh3

11 comments:

Cidak said...

Takkan ku menyerah kalah,
walau mimpi ku musnah,
harapan ku hancur,
sayapku patah,


Slagi jasadku belum terkubur!
Slagi tubuhku, belum ditimpa uzur!
pantang datuk nenek moyangku,
Berundur!

Chaiyoo Ulya Pemalu

sofia said...
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-hazen said...

merasa yang sama.

tapi tak ada la sampai international kan

keh keh keh.

sofia said...

weyh,haha whenever you feel like "dis is insane,i can't do dis"..you can always listen to dat song,da song above..pelita,a very inspirational song =)sumbat telinga ngan earphone,pasng volume kasi full,nyanyi kuat2..haha it always work for me..neway there's always room for improvement..it's never too late,it's either now or never..

life must go on,there's no pause button in our life dat we can stop it,when we feel stress up..and there's no rewind button either..so stop living in yr past,and start facing yr present life..face it like a true man!! haha

sorry bebel panjang..good luck =)

cherub_yan said...

its a good sign when u still have those feelings..semua bnde payah kan at the beginning..tpi winners never quit rite..utk diri sndri jugak ayt ni semanye..hehe

W M Najib said...

Allah Maha Menguji

hidup ni mcam roda. sekejap kat atas. skejap kat bawah.

kadng kadng lama dekat atas. kadng kadng lama dekat bawah.

teruskan berusaha duhai sahabat!

~hAKim ZaiLAn~ said...

kamon ah ulya!

azrulhanafi said...

come on la ulya..i believe u cn do something better thah the past...don't give up broo

ainshams said...

dalam panas ada hujan, dalam hujan ada pelangi..
asam garam pahit manis kehidupan..
perjalanan masih panjang.. jika dipanjangkan usia..
yang penting, ikut flow & do with all our heart.
wish u all the best!

Ainul Arina Madhiah said...

tak mustahil pun kalau nka mengulang semua tu balik.... selamat! good luck!

Anonymous said...

All the best babe..:)